1 week ago
This moment. This exact moment. I couldn't believe she was actually here. The culmination of 2 years of tears, heartache & grief. Of crying in the shower too many times to remember. Of watching from the sidelines as the whole world seemed to be having babies. The grief I felt when I lost my first... how I sobbed as I sat alone, bleeding on the bathroom floor. The numbness I felt as I lost my second .. a journey that ended in operating theatre in Turkey. The needles, the hormones, the scans, the monthly emotional rollercoaster- the hope, the disappointment, the anger at myself, the anger at my body... it was all worth it. All of it. And I would do it all again in a heartbeat, because this very moment - my baby, finally in my arms. I share this for those of you currently experiencing infertility and pregnancy loss, for the hundreds of messages and emails I continue to receive sharing your own heartbreak and thanking me for sharing mine. There is always hope and you are not alone. Keep going and know that your journey, however hard, will be worth it in the end. 🌈 #trustthetimingofyourlife .
Thank you @thefirsthello for capturing this moment I will treasure forever. #poppyvalentine #doublerainbow #infertilitywarrior #secondaryinfertility #ihadamiscarriage you can catch up on our fertility journey #nsmfertility